I register for my classes next semester and I've thought long and hard about which classes I want to take.

I have decided that I am not going to take painting 5 in the spring because I honestly just can't take painting anymore. One day I hope to not struggle with it, but for now I just need a break. Painting class would probably assure me an easy A, but maybe the work load isn't worth it. Even as I am typing this now I am still not sure if I should take it. The only reason why I am being indecisive is because of my recent painting, "Purgatory". I actually like that painting and it is one of my best that I've done so far. There are still a few things I need to tweak, but I'll eventually get around to it. I have to say that I was extremely close to the point of just giving up and just saying, "Fuck this!" Though there is something always inside of me that won't allow myself to give up. When it comes to my art assignments no matter how hard or detailed they are I will always get them done by the due date. I like to prove to everyone and to myself that I can get things done regardless of how impossible it may seem.

It surprises me when people tell me, especially with my art that I am an inspiration to them. It feels nice.